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(For a more comprehensive look at my journey in 2018, see my blog post The Weight of What Happened)

Hey, five-years-ago-me,

It’s springtime again, the season of memories again, flowers blooming and sun warming and PTSD knocking again.

Like every year since, I wouldn’t need a calendar to know what time of year it is. This body of ours still reminds me, feeling the memories without even trigger, breath spontaneously shallow, thoughts swirling with potential catastrophes.

I am so … continue reading

Crying out to the Pain Mender, Planet-Keeper

March 29, 2023

SorrowRejoicing

I wonder if they were going to look at the planets.

We set up the telescope, peering towards the western sky, having anticipated the sight of Mercury, Jupiter, Venus, Uranus, and Mars. Lined up near the moon, a stunning display.

I had wanted to feel small. Wanted the kids to feel small, because only in our smallness can we forget ourselves, feel wonder, welcome joy and peace.

We’ve been planning it, looking forward to this, and I wonder if … continue reading

Dear Five-Years-Ago Me

Crying out to the Pain Mender, Planet-Keeper

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